Waltzing into P2 Year, Still in a Pandemic -

Summer is coming to an end and we are still in a pandemic. It feels surreal. I never thought I could, or would, experience so many losses in such a short amount of time. I feel like I have been working non-stop to try to catch up with so many expenses. There really has not been a break in between all of the breaths and moments. In many ways,

I feel like I have been holding my breath for a year.

My seven day work schedules are coming to an end. I am dropping to part time at one of the hospitals I work at, will continue as an intern at the second hospital I work at, and am exploring another opportunity as well. I am trying to learn about the different areas that bring me the most joy and fulfillment. I am learning a lot about myself, my boundaries, and expectations.

I’ve been assigned two IPPEs next year and I am incredibly excited for both of them because they are state of the art institutions. I’ve been incredibly blessed with my matches; I approach every IPPE assignment with eagerness and a willingness to learn (think of a four day job interview). Both have taught me so much about myself, the things I love, and what drives me. However, I’ve learned a lot the last year as well.

Life is short.
Spend time with the people you love.
It’s not worth locking yourself in a home because of fear.

I hardly spent time with my husband this summer and miss simple things like cooking dinner, going on long walks on the beach, hiking, and camping. I miss falling asleep to fire crackling in the background and I miss the smell of a firepit over a musky dark night sky. I can’t wait to give my body a much needed moment of silence and healing. But… I also really want to spend more time with the people I love. I want to build and make memories instead of reuniting over unanticipated deaths. Life is too short.

With Love,