Work and my director duties have been keeping me pretty busy. Needless to say, it’s taken up most of my time. I actually have not been dedicating the NECESSARY amount of time I should be to my courses. I’m taking some time this weekend to catch up and do that. I hate failing and am really not going to tolerate any of that at this point of my life.
My biblical discipline hasn’t been on point but I’ve been trying to get back to sharing daily with all of you.
I’ve been reflecting on the significance of this week. Oddly, at this exact same time last year, I was evaluated by my medical physician and placed on medical leave to recover from my exhaustion. I was in such a dark place in all aspects of my life and had no idea what to do.
I have come such a long way in my recovery process, this past year, and I am so proud of myself. As women, we are conditioned to never put ourselves first, and there’s almost a sense of guilt that comes with being public about that. There’s definitely a double standard. Women will call other women selfish for pursuing their own individual needs and desire, but will rarely tell a man he’s selfish if he needs to take care of himself or his career. If there’s one thing I’ve learned this year it’s setting my boundaries, pursuing and expressing my needs. It is so healthy for us to realize when we need to walk away from toxic environments, individuals, and work climates. The ability to recognize red flags is the first step, and then acting on it is an entirely separate step.
Self care, self love, boundaries, and awareness of limitations are all key aspects of remaining afloat in an insidious world. We can not take care of anyone, if we are not taken care of: physically, mentally, and spiritually.
“If you obsess over whether you are making the right decision, you are basically assuming that the universe will reward you for one thing and punish you for another.
The universe has no fixed agenda. Once you make any decision, it works around that decision. There is no right or wrong, only a series of possibilities that shift with each thought, feeling, and action that you experience.
If this sounds too mystical, refer again to the body. Every significant vital sign- body temperature, heart rate, oxygen consumption, hormone level, brain activity, and so on- alters the moment you decide to do anything… decisions are signals telling your body, mind, and environment to move in a certain direction.”