Insomniac.

Good morning and happy Sunday,
img_2482I wrote yesterday’s post in such a haste.  My new medication makes it difficult for me to sleep and, as part of my transition of returning back to a normal sleep cycle before going back to work, I tried sleeping naturally without 5mg of melatonin Friday night.  It did not go well. I did not fall asleep until 1:30AM and woke up at 4:30AM.

I started my Saturday at 6:00AM to prep for a dog date, took a head shot, went to a doctor’s appointment, wrote an essay, went on a much needed date with my partner at a local coffee shop, and then we finally watched “Black Panther.”

Everything went according to plan but I found that I was cranky for most of the day and out of focus.  Last night, I decided to take the 5mg melatonin for the sake of listening to my body’s much needed sleep demands.

If you have been following my blog, you know that I hate taking medication as a solution to our life’s problems.  Medications usually relieve the symptom of a much deeper issue in our physical health, spiritual life, mental health, diet, or emotional well being.  I have been reading, writing, and slowly mending the years of hurt I have experienced.  It is my hope that I can transition back to a natural full sleep cycle within six months, so that I can provide my body with the much needed love it deserves (without medications).

 I just started reading another book yesterday, I’m hoping to finish it by tomorrow, it is called The Language of Feelings by David Viscott.

If you can’t learn something about yourself when you’re hurt, you are missing an opportunity to grow or to change the way you deal with the world, as well as to check out the validity of your expectations.  Expectations determine how each of us anticipates the world.  And so our expectations are potential sources of hurt.

img_2476I have been soaking in the way he describes mental and physical pain, the linkages between the two, and how people spend years not enjoying life as a defense mechanism to not experience hurt.  Every day I am challenging myself to define, name, and express my emotions as they come.  Instead of hiding from them – I will embrace them and understand how I can be the CEO of my emotions.

On this Sunday, I ask that you pray for my healing process, and I will also open up and ask, “How I can pray for you today?”  Would you like me to send a prayer of blessing?  Do you have a prayer request that I can assist you with?

1 Thessolians 5:14-17

Brothers and sisters, we urge you to warn those who are disorderly.  Comfort the discouraged, help the weak.  Be patient with everyone.  Make sure no one repays a wrong with a wrong, but always pursue the good for each other and everyone else.  Rejoice always.  Pray continually.

 

With all my heart,

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