…success is a journey, not a destination. Material abundance, in all its expressions, happens to be one of those things that makes the journey more enjoyable. But success also includes good health, energy and enthusiasm for life, fulfilling relationships, creative freedom, emotional and psychological stability, a sense of wellbeing and peace of mind.
I was accepted into medical school in 2014. All of my small earnings from 2013-2014 went towards the trips, applications, and interviews. I did not have money to secure my seat. I asked my parents to help me and I would pay them back meager amounts over the next five months. They declined. They wanted me to learn the hard way. This has been their life lesson to me since I was sixteen. They would not financially support me in my education because they wanted me to learn the true meaning of work ethic and ambition. I couldn’t afford my seat, I lost my seat, and I am writing about this painful experience now in 2018. This is the biggest heartbreak I have experienced in my lifetime. I had little to no support throughout undergraduate and graduate school and I thought this was the one time I could finally ask for help. It broke my heart.
My partner promised he would help me after he finished school, while I re-earned the necessary income for the interviews, applications and seat deposit. He did not graduate until 2017.
I have been battling this heartbreaking moment for years now and am finally taking the time to process and heal this wound. It is a complicated feeling but there are a mixture of hidden undertones. Many of these are a private part of my life that only one other person knows about.
I have been reading rapidly these past four days. I picked up a few books the week: The Alchemist, The Seven Laws of Spiritual Success, Success Affirmations, and The Language of Feelings. I started and finished reading The Alchemist on Tuesday and reopened my mind to the concept of reading the universe and omens.
I feel that the universe is aligning in my favor now. I am reading the good omens and am changing my frequency to bring in energy and frequencies that align more with mine. It was a wonderful reminder of risk-taking in order to find our own treasures.
I have been writing daily positive affirmations, while addressing the suppressed wounds I’ve hidden for years (a survival mechanism), and am reading furiously about how to change a lifetime of self doubt and negativity.