Being a giver is hard.

I wanted to share some of our photos of our trip but also wanted to share the complications of being a giver. I’m a giver.  I am the middle child of thirteen.  I was conditioned, raised and taught to help everyone but myself. After a lifetime, it is hard not to question what that does to you as an adult.  There were parts of 2016 where I found myself drowning because no one was helping me or hearing my pleas and cries for assistance.  I felt like my cries were velvet-y clear but I learned (quickly) that there are more takers in the world then givers.  Takers tend to stray away when you need them most and have difficulty expressing empathy or assisting others.  They are, in no means narcissists, it just happens to be that their comfort level tends to be more self-involved.  There are a lot of wonderful things about being a giver but there are also dark moments that can harden a heart.

To the givers out there… work on your balance.  Allot large amounts of time to yourself- so you can give your heart the warmth it deserves.  Be selfish sometimes.  Drown out the negative energy that feeds off your persistent positive energy.  Most of all, do not ever think it is wrong to be a big-hearted person.  The stars will always align in your favor, you just have to be patient.

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Today I choose life. Every morning when I wake up I can choose joy, happiness, negativity, pain… To feel the freedom that comes from being able to continue to make mistakes and choices – today I choose to feel life, not to deny my humanity but embrace it. – Kevyn Aucoin

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